1 The idea of this visit was torture to me, yet I could not refuse.
2 During the whole of this wretched mockery of justice I suffered living torture.
3 I do refuse it," I replied; "and no torture shall ever extort a consent from me.
4 Years will pass, and you will have visitings of despair and yet be tortured by hope.
5 I shall ascend my funeral pile triumphantly and exult in the agony of the torturing flames.
6 From the tortures of my own heart, I turned to contemplate the deep and voiceless grief of my Elizabeth.
7 Waldman inflicted torture when he praised, with kindness and warmth, the astonishing progress I had made in the sciences.
8 I knew that I was preparing for myself a deadly torture, but I was the slave, not the master, of an impulse which I detested yet could not disobey.
9 The tortures of the accused did not equal mine; she was sustained by innocence, but the fangs of remorse tore my bosom and would not forgo their hold.
10 I might be driven into the wide Atlantic and feel all the tortures of starvation or be swallowed up in the immeasurable waters that roared and buffeted around me.
11 I now also began to collect the materials necessary for my new creation, and this was to me like the torture of single drops of water continually falling on the head.
12 My destruction might indeed arrive a few months sooner, but if my torturer should suspect that I postponed it, influenced by his menaces, he would surely find other and perhaps more dreadful means of revenge.
13 This winter has been passed most miserably, tortured as I have been by anxious suspense; yet I hope to see peace in your countenance and to find that your heart is not totally void of comfort and tranquillity.
14 Now all was blasted; instead of that serenity of conscience which allowed me to look back upon the past with self-satisfaction, and from thence to gather promise of new hopes, I was seized by remorse and the sense of guilt, which hurried me away to a hell of intense tortures such as no language can describe.