1 No one paid any attention to me, and I sat crushed and humiliated.
2 I sat down; the servant began laying the table; I felt even more humiliated when he was present.
3 But by then I did not desire their affection: on the contrary, I continually longed for their humiliation.
4 I had been humiliated, so I wanted to humiliate; I had been treated like a rag, so I wanted to show my power.
5 I had been humiliated, so I wanted to humiliate; I had been treated like a rag, so I wanted to show my power.
6 And what is most humiliating of all, to blame for no fault of my own but, so to say, through the laws of nature.
7 Though it was hardly a stroll so much as a series of innumerable miseries, humiliations and resentments; but no doubt that was just what I wanted.
8 She realised that my outburst of passion had been simply revenge, a fresh humiliation, and that to my earlier, almost causeless hatred was added now a PERSONAL HATRED, born of envy.
9 The thought, too, came into my overwrought brain that our parts now were completely changed, that she was now the heroine, while I was just a crushed and humiliated creature as she had been before me that night--four days before.
10 Those moans express in the first place all the aimlessness of your pain, which is so humiliating to your consciousness; the whole legal system of nature on which you spit disdainfully, of course, but from which you suffer all the same while she does not.
11 At times, with an intense, acute pang I was stabbed to the heart by the thought that ten years, twenty years, forty years would pass, and that even in forty years I would remember with loathing and humiliation those filthiest, most ludicrous, and most awful moments of my life.
12 This was a regular martyrdom, a continual, intolerable humiliation at the thought, which passed into an incessant and direct sensation, that I was a mere fly in the eyes of all this world, a nasty, disgusting fly--more intelligent, more highly developed, more refined in feeling than any of them, of course--but a fly that was continually making way for everyone, insulted and injured by everyone.